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Eyes Sagging Can't Type

--I need to be comfortable with writing all the time.
--I named by laptop Wybie. Yes, from Coraline.
--Less procrasination would be golden.

Love you all! See you tomorrow, maybe <3

Social Networking Personality Tests and Coloring

[I took this in-depth personality quiz on Facebook, and to make my packrat side happy I decided to blog it. I even colored the text that I felt most fit me.]

Aesthetic

You appreciate art, beauty, and design; you know that they are not superficial but absolutely crucial to living the good life. You have good taste, and you're proud of it. Those with a high score on the "aesthetic" trait are often employed in literary or artistic professions, enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about the arts, reading, and travel.

You don't think it's pretentious to be moved by art and beauty. You're not one of those who believe it doesn't matter what something looks like as long as it does its job.

Innovative

You come up with a lot of ideas; if one doesn't work out, there's always another waiting in the wings. You often have interesting solutions to difficult problems. You're practically a one-person brainstorming session.

You are less interested changing the world than in dealing with things as they are. Unlike those who spend all their time trying to solve problems, you prefer to zero in on things that work and stick with them.

Assertive

You behave in a confident and forceful manner, take charge of the situation, raise your hand in class, stand up for what you think is right, and lead others. Among those who have a high score on the "assertive" trait, many have jobs in which they are valued for their organizational skills as well as their talent for supervising others.

You are not interested in fading into the woodwork, leaving everything to fate, taking more time than necessary to accomplish a task [I actually do take more time than necessary to accomplish a task.], or avoiding confrontation.

Understanding

You are willing to take the time to find out what's going on with other people, especially if they're in distress. You're a good listener, you don't criticize, and you offer unbiased, respectful, honest advice when it's requested. With a high score on the "understanding" trait, it is likely that you are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.

You don't feel the need to impose your standards on others or say things that, even though true, cause pain.

Creative

You are good at solving problems, coming up with original ideas, and seeing connections between things, connections that most other people miss. People with a high score on the "creative" trait often are employed in such fields as finance and scientific research, and enjoy avant garde and classical music as well as literary fiction and scholarly non-fiction.

You do not shun abstractions and concepts in favor of the concrete and tangible.

Astute

You are a quick study. You generally don't need to have things explained to you more than once. When presented with a problem, you will often have an instant understanding of where to look for the solution.

You do not take your sweet time when presented with a new task to complete or problem to solve. You don't avoid assignments that require you to learn new skills.

Intellectual

You are thoughtful, rational, and comfortable in the world of ideas. People find you interesting to talk to. You're the living embodiment of the saying "You learn something new every day." In general, those with a high score on the "intellectual" trait are employed in such fields as teaching and research, and are enthusiastic about reading, foreign films, and classical music.

You do not avoid abstract conversation, experimenting with new ideas, or studying new things. It bores you to stick to the straight and narrow of what you already know.

Original

You are constantly coming up with new ideas. For you, the world as it exists is just a jumping-off place; what's going on inside your mind is often more interesting than what's going on outside.

You don't feel that the road to success is to be a realist and stick to the program; you never stop yourself from coming up with new ideas or telling the world what you're thinking about.

Warm

You have a genuine interest in other people. You're a natural host, and are always thinking about how you can increase the happiness of those around you. When friends have problems or are in trouble, you're usually the first person they turn to for aid and comfort. Scoring high on the "warm" trait suggests that you are among those who enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.

You don't always say exactly what you're thinking; you don't like the idea of causing anyone pain because of your criticism.

Scrupulous

You are an honest, fair person. You don't lie or cheat to get ahead. You treat others with respect and hope for the same in return.

You do not feel that you are above the rules that everyone else follows; you are definitely not willing to do whatever it takes to get ahead.

[I do realize I highlighted a lot of these things...]

eeyyy

I just ADORE school

10. No free time! Who needs it anyway? Homework, naps, and other school-related activities will fill your date book in no time! You'll never be bored again.
9. There are time restraints on everything: how long you take to eat, when assignments are turned in, how quickly your legs can take you from class to class between the bells. I just savour the feeling of the clock ticking away at my academic existence.
8. Backaches are swell; the throbbing in your shoulders and the ever so hint of a writer's cramp blessing your body every waking day.
7. What would be a high school without the drama? Chit chat about one another, and just judge and don't listen. I sure don't believe in the quote "Be curious, not judgmental." Pfffttt.
6. Being an opinionated person, I adore the way that school almost makes you have no opinion in most areas. Sure, chat about US History but bring up unfairness in a classroom and you're seen as the smartass.
5. Being at my school, I adore the lack of classes. Other schools get pottery, photography, art history, but guess what we get?? A hump of networking, programming, and don't forget the infamous A+ class.
4. I've always been an early-to-bed late-to-rise kinda girl, so getting up at 5am every morning is just the perfect time to feel the icy morning air and watch the news crew's eyes sag purple.
3. I love the stress and anxiety that comes along with all that work (see 10 and 9)! The itching, nagging feeling that bubbles up on your insides and implodes with the result of compulsive cursing and procrastination.
2. Sure you love your friends, and you get to see them everyday, but it's all the lack of privacy I enjoy in the high school atmosphere. Students up in my 'grill' just make me jump around with joy and throw glitter on the soccer field.
1. We're done with the FCRAP, but hey, SAT's are on the way and they're just something tiny, right? WHO NEEDS STUDYING?

Random thoughts...

I haven't really blogged in a long time. The need to write [pound on the keyboard] my feelings has been irrelevant in my mind for the past two months. It's actually quite sad.

A few notes on summer:

--The very first day of summer I started dating Sterling, and he's this humorous, genuine, caring guy. I wonder if he'd hate me saying this online...but I really feel like I bring out a different side of him. A side that isn't a jerk, and actually reminds me that he's there for me and that has a tendency to do the sweetest things. He was the first person (besides my mother) to give me flowers, the one who sneaked a note into my suitcase when I left for Dallas, and remembered how spirited I am about night beach life. Sterling is also the first guy I have complete nerves around, nerves that I can't place that cause me to shy in person sometimes.

--I've had the time to sit in front of my bookshelf, organize it, and go through all of my favorite parts in each book. Today, I actually read my favorite parts in Twilight and Breaking Dawn (Book 1). I had forgotten how much passion I put into each novel. Each page was something I took in so deeply, memorizing myself in the text, and pulling quotes and ideas from each passage. I fell in love with the character Stacey Brown (Blue is for Nightmares), the character Byrony (Atonement), Ellen Hopkin's stanza writing, John Green's way of portraying strong characters and stories, and the way the book Sweethearts makes me cry every time I discover that there are some people you will indefinitely love but they won't always be there. With realization, I knew that Literature was a part of me, and that I would never lose it no matter how twisted I feel.

--Music. I couldn't help diving into Demi Lovato's music, listening to "I've Gotta Feeling" on repeat, or even loving "Party in the USA" by Miley Cyrus. There is so many more songs and artists that I have savored in lately. Even if it's not everyone's favorite, or "acceptable", it's your own taste. Thrive in it, love it, and embrace everything you enjoy.

--Sounds in general amuse me also. My cousin has been staying here for a week and he is the type to entertain himself; he will make the oddest sounds that just work. When you plug in speakers to a computer, a static sound that almost pops. The car keys making a cling sound that shuffles when you are driving. Sounds are just everywhere--if you don't notice them then you're missing out. All these sounds become so common and nonexistent from years of hearing them.

--School work is the last thing I want to think about but it's there humming beside me. Almost beckoning me, but also saying "You can get it done tomorrow..." when I end up swimming, lounging, or playing Animal Crossing: City Folk. There's a crap load of stuff to be done by August 24th and I'm determined to get it done. (However the natural procrastinator in me says otherwise).

--Sadly, I've just started getting out into the sun on a daily basis and I realized how much I miss swimming. The way the water engrosses you and the ripples splash against your shoulders. Even though they make me look dorky, I love the feeling of wearing goggles and looking up to the quivering water.

England now encouraging masturbating--you have the right to an orgasm a day.

might move blog to word press

revamp[ire]

You know the time during the year when you think that you'll re-do an abundance of things in your life? That could even be just moving around furniture, changing an i/m name or for me revamping just about everything.

I wait til the middle of summer to do this because I'm FREE. I'm out of Florida and at one of the calmest places I've ever been to. I have an annoying tendency to think about doing things, but never actually accomplish them. I know that's it has a definition (procrastination) but I have so much ambition for my life....I just never do anything about it. To me it's annoying, tedious, and I'd rather just get everything done with. Packing for my three week trip was even put off til an hour before I had to hit the road. The sad part was that all of the clothes were piled into my fuzzy green chair.

I'm really wanting this blog to be SOMETHING. Something in my life that can be more than an endless rant, and a change of colors just because I get bored. I'll see you all tomorrow <3

APUSH pages read: 0/157
APLANG books read: 0/2

sunday

look @ that dork

insomnia

When in doubt, have large hair and dark lipstick.

Evidetly, these past two days I've been one of those emotional wrecked angsty teenagers who can be giggly one moment and think of something "terrible" and begin crying. So after I got out a bubble bath, I decided to put my ipod on shuffle and this is what I learned absolutely cheers me up:
--Make your hair extra large because you've been infatuated with Hermione Granger lately
--Wear the darkest lipstick you have, wear it proudly and kiss your mirror
--Sing very loudly to every embarrassing song that comes up such as ones from Lindsay Lohan
--And, when love/relationship songs come on think about where everything could go
--When Gives You Hell comes on think about all the people who fucked you over and be proud to sing this with them in mind
--Be tempted to wear outrageous eyeshadow colors but figure out that if you do to see Up! later, you would definitely regret it
--Laugh at yourself when you're spinning in circles, dancing, putting on more lipstick, and adding more moose to your already fluffy hair

Anyways, here's a little quiz / fill in type of thing for all of you who read.

10 things you wish you could say to ten different people right now:
1. I'm sorry for never giving you enough time, but the talks we have out in the garage mean so much to me.
2. Sometimes you're such an ass and I want to stop talking to you, but I just can't.
3. I wish that you would take a breather and realize some of the things you say.
4. I'm really glad we fixed some things up. But are you ever going to stay permanently?
5. Please, go look at yourself in the mirror--really look at yourself and tell me that you don't see who you are.
6. I always hoped that friendship would prevail all.
7. I'm so sorry that it seems like I don't give you enough time.
8. You'll never know how much of a brother you really seem to me.
9. Thanks for just being you, at all times.
10. I'll always have this thing for you, but I'll never let it ruin the friendship we have.
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9 Things people probably don't know:
1. No one really knows me unless they're a close friend. I'm not that shy.
2. I grind my teeth when I'm sleeping. It's due to TMJ, and my jaw hurts more than half the time.
3. I hate how people stress about their body, money, sexuality, status, life in general. Just love.
4. I didn't become passionate about Harry Potter till after the third movie.
5. I'm scatterbrained when I get excited about something I'm talking about.
6. I don't trust many people, maybe 8-10 outside of my family.
7. I miss how strong I used to be.
8. The only meat I eat is chicken.
9. I love the simplistic things in life.

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8 ways to win your heart:
1. Give hugs just because.
2. Make me laugh even when I'm crying.
3. Treat me well.
4. Let me be myself.
5. Be good to my friends and family.
6. Let me trust you, the real you.
7. Tell me a song or two that remind you of me.
8. Don't judge.
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7 awesome movies:
1. Billy Elliot
2. Rent
3. Thirteen
4. Charlie Bartlett
5. 10 Things I Hate About You
6. How To Deal
7. Running with Scissors

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6 things you do before you fall asleep:
1. Wash my face.
2. Put my iPod on shuffle.
3. Pick up my current book and read.
4. Turn over to face the window.
5. Think.
6. Hope.

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5 people who mean a lot:
1. My mom.
2. My dad.
3. My brother Maxwell.
4. My grandma Judy.
5. My aunt Heather.
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4 things you don't like:
1. Frogs.
2. Anxiety.
3. Broccoli.
4. Nightmares.

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3 things you like:
1. My close friends.
2. Hand surfing outside car windows.
3. Flickering lights.
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2 things you want to do before you die:
1. Change someone's life.
2. Write a novel that will inspire.
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1 confession:
I say I don't regret things, but honestly I do.

tell me why

And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around
And here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why?
You could write a book on how
To ruin someone's perfect day
Well, I get so confused and frustrated
Forget what I'm trying to say, oh
I'm sick and tired of your reasonsI got no one to believe in
You tell me that you want me, then push me around

13 Reasons Why

I have an uncanny ability to discard things I should do, and just lie on my bed not caring until 8pm. What happens when you just lounge all day? You're brain begins to process things you've shoved to the deepest, darkest, part that was never meant to be brought out again. However shit that you shoved away will always crawl back.

Why did I let myself do this, again?
1. All school related things seem revolting when the end is near + a three day weekend just passed.
2. You're tired for no reason, you just are. Tired from lying around and drinking siera mist while watching JK8 all day long.
3. Laptops are too handy for those who procrastinate and the internet is too fast.
4. You're mom just went grocery shopping and got all of you favorite snack foods like goldfish and she even got you brownie mix to help you feel better.
5. All of your favorite novels are sprawled out in front of your bookshelf because you feel like there's no way that they can just /sit/ on the shelves for their lifespan.
6. You're lazy, admit it.
7. You realize that you're family is annoying today, and your room is the safe heaven you have--even if the door lock is broken.
8. Harry Potter is your source of happiness, so while rereading GoF, you soon realize little details you'd temporarily forgotten.
9. You go through each Harry Potter book remembering all of your favorite things. Hence part of the book pile.
10. You're writing all day long via text with one of your best friends.
11. You dwell on AP classes, wondering if three is too much or too little for scholarships and you also dwell on how you got wrapped into running for president of BPA.
12. Your best friend turned boyfriend turned exboyfriend is completely silent towards you most of the time.
13. Your exboyfriend (not the best friend) completely ruined you, making you wish that all you could do is stay in bed and wish you'd never made one of the biggest regrets of your life.

Adriana / Luna / Plato / Tana

Luna, I'm having a hard time thinking about things to say about you.
You're too amazing in my life for me to describe <3

fox hug

fox hug, originally uploaded by wirrow.

Another piece of art by Wirrow. I really like the intimacy of the hug, and how it can display multiple things.

jus sayin'

*I will probably go back to each of my "meet & write" posts and make them longer. I write quickly, and often go back and rewrite each of them.

Tyler / Murf

Though you, Tyler, almost made us hit the back bumper of a car that you earlier honked at, and sometimes make me laugh till I turn the color of a cheery slurpee (very embarrassing shade of red)--I still love you. You're one of my best friends in this short life that I've yet to live.

You're there to make me laugh, asks me what's wrong, to oogle over Youtube channels, to bring up random John Green associated things, to enlighten me in some music, and everything else that I can't even describe with the use of a keyboard.

You were the one who took me to an amazing concert, TWLOHA: Heavy and Light, and you were there for the aftermath when my ex-boyfriend was being crazy (nice word for it), and when I explained what I was going to walk into (a massive angry attack from my parents due to my ex). Next, I'll take you to a concert you can't forget.

I will confide in you with just about anything, and I would hope you'd do the same with me. You're one of the people I completely trust, which means a lot. I can't trust many people with all of me.

Let's make FML shirts one day, and run around with glitter on ourselves and hell let's dance in your culdasack while singing along to Alicia Keys.



House: Gryffindor
Song: With A Little Help From My Friends by The Beatles

Ishan

Ishan, we've only become close this past year, and I wish there was more time in school, and I hope there is more time outside of school. In all the years to come, I know everything will go your way.

We, just recently, deemed the word UGLY a curse word. It's not a pretty word, it makes us wince whenver we do say it. We can't even call the weather ****. We may be silly, but trust me, we only see the beauty. (Yes to all: the word ugly is worse than the word fucker).

I don't have too much to say, because I'd rather hug you and tell you that I wish there was another time where I could steal your jacket and snuggle with it. Or even more so, another time were we could roam around the hotel during BPA and just talk about nonsense or walk silent as we point out things (or cute guys).

House: Hufflepuff
Song: Forever Young by Youth Group

meet & write

I'm currently in Web Design, wanting to bang my head aganist the table because Scott, Cecil, and I are trying to come up with a design for SASA's website. Nothing works, we're all lazy. Although, we get out of half of the semester exam so that always cheers us up. At any moment, Cecil may turn my screen and read what I'm writing or Scott will look over and wondering if I'm fretting about emails again.

That was saved as a draft, and now I'm in A+ completely bored and annoyed that a PowerPoint presentation is due to day. I really do hate this class, it's so bogus that we get tests without knowing about them and end up having assignments we didn't even know were due. He's not the best teacher in the world, and I dislike having to teach myself things about computer parts.

This morning, I came up with a grand plan that consists of about 11-15 blog posts. I love all of my friends, and I've decided to dedicate a blog post to all of my close ones. I already have a list that I tore out of my notebook and wrote with my glittery orange gel pen. I know what to write about some (Tyler, I thought about yours the most today) and others I'm unsure about what to say (Ozzie, I can't get you off of my mind, and it's horrid trying to explain it all) and others who I know bits and pieces of what to say (Taylor & Adriana). I know that I'm going to do something really dorky at the end of each post: list what Hogwarts house they'd be in, songs that remind me of them, and maybe a book that they should read. It seems suiting, for me to expalin those little lists to my friends.

I appreciate everyone I've met in my life; even if you butchered me through and through. I don't want to ever exclude anyone in my posts, I apologize if I do. And don't fret, this may take me a while if I am as braindead later as I am now.

Ugh, my teacher is bitching about how there aren't pictures on someone's slides. He's so stupid about these things. He doesn't teach but bitches because they aren't what he said they should be.

/crawling into a hole and listening to the rain

"post dream haze"

late night writing

I've always loved the group Late Night Alumni, ever since they came out I knew of them but once I started watching Michelle Phan, I knew that they were one of my favorite music artists out there.

I know it came as no surprise
I'm affected more than I had guessed on what was said

It's 12am, and I'm still awake. I'm considering staying up till tomorrow morning (though I know this wouldn't end too well). It just feels good to be at happy moments, where exhilarating creativity flows through your vienes, you can sing along with your mom during the American Idol finale, and go on Myspace and edit the profile you've left abandoned for so long.

If the smile's not meant to be
If the heart's not ready to open
If we make it I won't see how it's broken

There's so much more that made my day today:
--I learned a new pattern for friendship bracelets (trust me, it's keeping my mind busy when I'm upset)
--During lunch there were semi-wars that consisted of tickling, and lots of laughing
--We got our yearbooks, I love looking back at my old yearbooks...it's my history
--I missed a reading check in English due to a yearbook signing party
--My complicated relationship is getting less painful to listen to the silence
--Rereading HP4, truly a mood lifter (I didn't start from 1 because I have the first three memorized)
--Looking at Wirrow's art is so much more fun than it may seem, he also writes beautiful things

I hope everyone is doing mighty fine <3

and she's back again!

Do you know how it feels to be cheated on?
Like, by a significant other? No. But in life? Kind of.
Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
Ummm. Whatever company sells the Crooms uniform shirts.
Do you have a good relationship with your mother?
Yep.
Are there any posters on your wall?
Yes! I have a few Harry Potter ones and several other ones. I need to hang some more up though.
Do you have a best friend?
Yes! Or rather a few, I’m not too sure. I know I definitely have four very good best friends.
Are you a mean person?
Sometimes, yes.
Does anyone hate you?
I don’t think so…
Do you think relationships are even worth it?
Yeah, I do.
What are you going to do this weekend?
Well, I’m hoping I can hang out with close friends! I want out of the house though, or be able to lock my bedroom door.
How many people of the opposite sex do you basically fully trust?
Fully trust? One.
Do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
Yeah, been there and can do it again once I sort everything out.
Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
Obviously, I’m at school now.
Do you usually tell people when your mad at them?
Hmmm. I don’t get MAD that often. Annoyed, yes, I usually do tell them or they get the jist of it.
Are you ticklish?
MWAHAHA, NO.
Are you gonna be home alone tonight?
No…I live with my parents and my younger brother.
Ever really cried your heart out?
Metaphorically, yes.
Who was the last female you hugged?
My mom? Haven’t been in hugging mood lately. FIX IT! :D
Is there one person or more in your life that can always make you smile?
YEAH!
What does your 5th text in your inbox say and who’s it from?
From Shannen: Haha. You going to ignore her rest of day?
If you were kicked out of your house, where would you go first?
To one of my friend’s homes; I have two of my best friends who live a bike ride away.
Have you ever kissed the last person you texted?
LOL, I have never kissed Shannen.
Someone leaves a note and flowers on your car, cute or tacky?
CUTE!
When you say you don’t care, do you mean it?
Ummm. Probably.
When was the last time you laughed really really hard?
Good question, Quiz. Thanks for making me realize my sadness even more so.

eh, eh

I want to sleep forever. I'm not having the best time lately. I'm like a fucking open wound. Half the time it doesn't matter, then the other half your body is reacting to the stings.

Starstruckk

Harry Potter 6

Yess, it is coming out two days earlier. BUT I WON'T BE ABLE TO SEE IT ON THAT DAY. I'll have to wait till FRIDAY. Because I'll be at some beach, or something. My mom had planned aruond it. Arg, okay. Rantrantrantrant. Done.

"When Big colors... he rarely stays within the lines."

Single greatest collab. (Nerdfighter style)

Carrie Bradshaw and Hank Green.

Annoyance #3

WHEN MICROSOFT MAKES IT TOO DIFFICULT TO RENEW THE XBOX LIVE ACCOUNT.

HELP?

tell me why

I bought my journal because it was absolutely gorgeous with it's tan background and tropical yet elegant flowers lacing together in vibrant colors. The lines on the papers are a pretty lilac too, and a matching purple ribbon to keep my place. I seriously keep journals in hopes of keeping my memories till I'm older, a place to store my feelings instead of bottling them up inside, and just a damn good place to doodle.

The best writing experience in that journal was just last March. I was lying in my Papa's front yard and a leaf ended up in the pages--I hadn't found until I got home. It's now nestled in there with tape.

I always say that I'm going to do this and that, and then some more. I never get much accomplished. I hate that part of me, the one that strives for everything but never has any motivation, or confidence, or even the yearn to move.

This included writing. I love to write, I love writing about myself, characters in my mind, my friends, just anything. I adore the art. My journal has suffered, and so has my creative aspects on life. Writing was just among a long list of things I want to do; it's about time that I jump back into my old self.

I have been really unhappy for the past six months or so. As several of my friends already know this was due to my past relationship, there were so many things wrong that I don't even want to get into the details. Perhaps one day I'll be able to say everything, because even the best of my friends don't know everything. Maybe it was my fault, maybe it was his. Or both.

"And I need you like a heartbeat. But you know you got a mean streak. Makes me run for cover when you're around. And here's to you and your temper, Yes, I remember what you said last night. And I know that you see what you're doing to me."

Why haven't I blogged about this before? I never felt like I was in the right place until recently. I've clearly moved on, a process that took a few months (even though I was still in that relationship). It was complicated. I hated it. What is love really? I know I was in love, that toe-curling feeling when you're with somone. But I learned that love is not being with someone when they tear you down so far you feel like your in the deep part of the ocean.

However, I've reached the surface of that ocean. (God that was a horrible metaphor.) My best guy friend, who I know there has always been that spark for since we met, we're together now. And I just rambled about the sad parts of my past relationship, and I'm not just yet ready to be completely bubbly and giggly about this one (on the blog, hell ask me in person and I probably won't stop smiling). But, I'm falling pretty damn fast. <3 <3

"I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well. And its too late for you and your white horse."

You know you love it

1. Spell your name without E,R,S,H,K,I,M,L,C,A,Y,N: *cries* I HAVE NO NAME NOW!
2. Are you single? Noope.
3. What is your favorite number? 19
4. What is your favorite color? Green, then probably pink...or blue!
5. Least favorite color? The color that comes up when you’re messing around on MS Paint and you try to make bright yellow darker and it’s this green/yellow/brown grossness?
6. What are you listening to? Her Morning Elegance by Oren Lavie
7. Are you happy with your life right now? Right now? Yeah, I’m happy...FL is chilly, I’m going to the beach tomorrow, and sipping an orange soda at 9am. This past week? <3 Definitely. It’s been nothing but happiness and bliss and in some people’s words giggly. This past month? ONE OF THE BEST. This past year? No, no I wasn’t happy...but I’m certainly getting there.
8. Are you involved with anyone? YOU JUST ASKED THIS, no? In question two. Yes I’m “involved” with someone.
9. What is your favorite subject in school/college? English and History <3 Amazing teachers and great students.
10. Do you shop at Abercrombie? No, would rather spend my money on books, dresses, and the occasional Harry Potter item.
11. Do you have money? I have 33 dollars in this pottery jar that my Uncle made me. I’m saving up for something special.
14. Are you gay? No, but if I was, Mr. Survey, would you make me stop filling this out? HUH, WOULDJA WOULDJA?!
15. Where do you wish you were right now? Hogwarts or someplace else (;
16. What should you be doing right now? Nothing! SPRING BREAK. *squee*

THE CANS:
Can you blow a bubble? Yeah? With a bubble wand.
Can you do a cart wheel? Haha no, I have no talent.
Can you touch your toes? Highly doubtful!
Can you wiggle your ears? I can’t really tell..but when I tried it felt really funny.
Can you touch your tongue to your nose? Almost...stupid tongue surgery did me nothing.

THE DIDS:
Did you ever want to be a doctor? Yes, this is where my love for House comes in <3
Did you ever want to be a fire fighter? No.
Did you ever want to be a teacher? Yep. I still do, actually.
Did you ever break the law? Nope.

THE DOs:
Do you like roller coasters? HELL TO THE YEAH.
Do you own a bike? Yes, but I don’t ride it as much as I should!
Do you play the lotto? Nope!
Do you like football? Sure, I mean, I like it as much as the next nerdy girl who knows nothing about it.
Do you have a shopping addiction? Hmmm, if I had money I would have a shopping addiction.

THE DOES:
Does your family have family picnics? There’s some annual family picnic reunion thing up north every year around July 4th.
Does your wallet have any pics in it? Yeah! I’ve got a picture of ME, just on my school ID.

THE LASTS:
Last person you hung out with? Ozzie <3 and Edwin, we went and saw Fast and Furious.
Last car ride? With Ozzie and Edwin, the light was YELLOW Edwin!
Last baby you held? Huh, well, I babysat for a family Saturday night. He’s over a year old, that’s still baby age right? He’s adorable, his name is Levy.

LAST THING?
What was the last thing you bought? Lip stuff, Strawberry Mint gum, and a 8 dollar movie ticket.
What was the last thing you had to drink? Orange Soda xD
What was the last thing you watched? Heh, HGTV.
What was the last thing you read? Well, in a smartass manner this is the last thing I read. But I was reading 13 Reasons Why earlier.
What was the last thing you hand wrote? I DUNNOO. Oh, crap, I have to write in my journal...thanks for reminding me!

THE WHOS:
Who last talked to you on the phone? The Oz man.
Who was the last person you took a picture of? Myself, LOL.
Who do you miss right now? So so many people, but just a few...or one in particular <3
Who last messaged you on facebook? MESSAGED? UHHH. I don’t remember, but I know the last wall-to-wall was Tyler!

CURRENTLY:
What color shirt are you wearing? It’s white.
Have any tattoos? Nope, but I want some! Two more years...
Have you any piercings? Just ears.
Straight hair or curly? Curly
Where are you? On my bed, with pillows and blankets galore. AAHH comfort (:

HAVE YOU EVER:
Failed a class? Nope!
Accomplished a life goal? No...
Sang in front of a crowd? LOL, no. Well, not by myself. I did chorus for three years.

FIVE THINGS YOU WILL FIND IN YOUR ROOM:
1. Lots and lots of books. I NEED MORE.
2. A Sirius Black scroll that’s my favorite poster type of thing ever.
3. An iHome that isn’t in full functionality.
4. Clothes!
5. About twenty dvds scattered on the floor.

TWO RELATIONSHIP QUESTIONS:
1. Want a relationship? I’m in a relationship <333
2. Want to get married? Yes!

FOUR THINGS ON YOUR MIND:
1. The weather feels amazing.
2. I want to go book shopping, take me?
3. My lack of knowledge for various things instead of just a few things. Make sense?
4. Glasses, I like them.

17. The way to win your heart? Love arrows.
18. When was the last time you really laughed? This is just great, I can’t remember.
19. Do you drink milk straight from the carton? Not guilty.
20. Who knows a big secret about you? Uhh, no one, probably. Which is probably a lie.
21. How long is your hair? NOT LONG ENOUGH.
22. When was the last time you sang out loud? RIGHT NOW xD
23. What did you have for breakfast? I ate a Cheery Toaster Strudel. Mmmm.
24. Is your birthday on a holiday? Google is my friend. My birthday has a lot of holidays...American Business Women’s Day, Autumn Equinox, Dear Diary Day, Elephant Appreciation Day, Hobbit Day, International Day of Radiant Peace, Mabon, and National White Chocolate Day.
25. What instant messaging service do you use? AIM. Occasionally MSN.
26. Are you signed on it right now and if so, who are you talking to? I’m not on right now. Never really go on all the time.
27. Can you cook? I can bake!
28. Did you have a nap today? It’s too early for that just yet!
29. What do you wear more, jeans or sweats? Jeans.
30. When is your birthday? September 22.
31. Where did you get the shirt you’re wearing? It was a middle school summer camp shirt. LOL.
32. Do you have any regrets? Yeah.
33. Do you use an alarm clock? Yep!
34. What’s the first thing you notice of the opposite sex? Hair xD
35. What color are your favorite shoes? Black!
36. Are you a social or antisocial person? Social, but I can be pretty shy.
[THIS QUESTION HAS NO NUMBER. It’s bothering me] Have the cops ever come to your house? In 2000 when my Nana died.
37. Do you have a tan? LOLLL. Wait you were serious? NO.
38. Ever had braces? Nope.
39. Are you afraid of the dark? No.
40. What’s your favorite commercial at the moment? Because of my mom, it’d have to be the potty dance.
41. Do you always wear your seat belt? Yes.
42. Who was the last person to disappoint you? No comment.
43. You know what you want to do with your life? I kind of want to be a 4th grade teacher.
44. How is life going for you right now? Is it just me, or has this question already been asked?
45. Do you like American Idol? No, it got old fast.
46. What was the last reason you cried? I was watching Marley and Me!
47. How do you feel about piercings and tattoos? <33
48. Do you believe that what goes around comes around? *shrugs* I guess.
49. What is your favorite fruit? Bananas.
50. Where is one place you want to visit? London!
51. Done anything illegal? OKAY NOW I KNOW THIS QUESTION HAS BEEN ASKED BEFORE.
[AGAIN, no number...] Have you ever crawled through a window? LOL YES. I felt so badass.
52. Are you a morning person or a night person? Night, night, night! Hoooot.
53. Are you a forgiving person? Yeah, but I never forget anything usually.
54. Are you taller than 5′6″? Ahah missing the boat by two inches.
55. Who are your good friends? Everybody <3
56. What did you think of this survey? I think you are a little too cocky, Mr. Survey.

Annoyance #2

When skinny people poke at the nonexistent flab and claim that they need to lose weight.

Swiper no swiping

Oh how I love Hayley Hoover! She made up a list on her blog, just pure brilliance. Lol, one day I will have enough creativiy for this blog...one day. Anyways the blog post was "ten easy ways to gain ten pounds" and "ten reasons to lose ten pounds". My favorites from each:

Ten easy ways to gain ten pounds:
1. Spend the majority of your time sitting sedentary in front of the computer.
5. Break up with your serious boyfriend.
7. You hate running.
9. Finish puberty.

Ten reasons to lose ten pounds:
3. Be preparing for college, where first impressions are everywhere.
7. Feel really gross and insecure all the time.
10. Be of the most appropriate age to wear a bikini.

Oh and as I search her blog more she has a "sexy" and "unsexy" list. ONE DAY, I will be this creative. I write, don't I? Why can't I come up with creative ideas for this blog...that I'm sure no one reads. Again my favorites:

Things that are sexy:
--Nerd boys! Especially with thick-framed glasses.
--Guhhhh. Slap me across the face, but... Twilight.
--The Notebook. Cliche, but come on.
--"As Long As You're Mine" from Wicked.

Things that are not sexy:
--Porn.
--Shirts that don't fit.
--Paris Hilton. Particularly, Paris Hilton in porn.

So thanks Hayley, for having this for me to steal. <3

I think I'll add onto this someday soon?

His (my? our?) brand of heroine

04.05.09

Fly Umbrella Fly

I should be cleaning, I really should be cleaning. I always should be cleaning. I don't know what it is but my room is ALWAYS a wreck. Typically it's my clothes everywhere with various books and movies. All of my makeup brushes and mineral makeup are on my dresser to among my Wii and PS2.

I've been on Deviantart a lot lately; looking up old artist loves and sneaking peeks at Alodia's amazing cosplaying outfits. I also enjoy Slinker's comics of Harry Potter and Death Note, oh and Teen Titans.

But this is one of my favorite pictures EVER, yes the caps is needed. All by Slumberdoll, and all of the pictures out of this little series? is amazing. I'm going to do this heart thing and put them all over my wall.

Annoyance #1

When I find something / someone that is admirable, or well liked and I share it with my friends and they act as if they found it. Then they plan to shove things in my face. Lovely.

Windex kills all

Today was not my day. One, because I had to babysit in the afternoon and it ended up being a spiral of hell. The oldest boy is very difficult in a very hyper-I'm-going-to-hit-you type of way. HE PEEDED ON THE CARPET. I was ready to take the Windex and make him permantely Windexified. And no, he's not like two he's about six years old.

Secondly, today was the day that my Nana died, about nine years ago. She's about the person I miss most in the world. I loved her so much. From the time she would take me to the hair salon with her while she got strawberry colored highlights to the times where she'd just take me to the beach and those were the days where I was very brown and not pale at all. There's so much more that I could say about her; it's just hard for me to talk about her.

Happy Spring Break everyone.

<3

Hey, hey

I'll fill in today tomorrow. Fail, I know. Night.

Nature walk

I really don't remember much that happened, except for cute moments with my boyfriend and okay, I got weirdly hyper. When I get weirdly hyper I just start rambling or making weird comments. Not too sure what overcomes me, but whatever I'm here accept it.

In English we went on a walk around the school, and my school is SMALL. So I was thinking "A walk, okay great. The same L shaped building I see every day." But we actually went out by this large tree by...a pond (was it a pond?..) and I saw nature like caterpillars. It was enticing. Hah.

Saved by Luke Conard is an amazing song that has a music video with Mario, Luigi, and Princess. Which just makes it that much more awesome.

I need more sleep.

<3

Fools gold

April Fools Day, I am never able to get anyone. But I did in math today. It wasn't epic, nor was it really funny. I simply enthusiastically said "I did my math homework! I understood it too!" or something along that line...and my friends was shocked? Bwaha, pure evil I tell you :

C!

BEDA

Blog Everyday April! It's here, I'm going to try and stick to my commitment of blogging everyday <3

it won't be long

BEDA!

remember to let her in your heart

Hey Jude, don’t be afraid.
You were made to go out and get her.
The minute you let her under your skin,
Then you begin to make it better.

And anytime you feel the pain, Hey Jude, refrain,
Don’t carry the world upon your shoulders.
For well you know that its a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder.

Hey Jude, don’t let me down.
You have found her, now go and get her.
Remember to let her into your heart,
Then you can start to make it better.

So let it out and let it in, Hey Jude, begin,
You’re waiting for someone to perform with.
And don’t you know that its just you, Hey Jude, you’ll do,
The movement you need is on your shoulder.

Hey Jude, don’t make it bad.
Take a sad song and make it better.
Remember to let her under your skin,
Then you’ll begin to make it better

<3

question of the day

Is the word coyote "coyotes" when in plural? Taylor confused my mind.

made of awesome

I haven't written ANY words lately. I haven't been doing ANYTHING actually. I have a whole list of things I want to do, that I have to do. If I don't do them I'm sure I'll just lose my sanity.

Some of the only things I get done are checking up on websites that I love:
- http://www.youtube.com
- http://www.digg.com
- http://xanga.com/ricebunny
- http://the-leaky-cauldron.org/
- http://mugglenet.com
- http://facebook.com
- http://www.twitter.com
- http://fmylife.com
Er and there are tons more, but those are the ones that are at the top of my list usually.

On youtube, I watched Hank Green's new video and I honestly liked all of his ideas--buttfire was wicked. And in regards to Hayley's new video, I realized how much my embarrajam is too Demi Lovato.

I have a jammed pack weekend that's sure to make me breakup even more than anything. On top of the project / sga / party filled weekend I'm dealing with someone who won't just LET GO. I know it's hard to move on, but get it fucking over with and give me space.

I also want to bake a cake this weekend....dunno if I'll fill it in, but it sounds so amazing. I'm thinking something lemon, or this apple spice cake recipe I found. Everything sounds so yummy! And if I can't bake a cake then I'm going to make peanut butter rice krispie balls. Hehehe. I can't believe I'm talking about food though, my stomach is killing me.

All in all, this week could've been better. Though the highlight is today when, I was lying in the grass with two of my favorite people. I also enjoyed reading FML stores to Oz.

Buhhhhh,
Carly

forever young

The days where we were freshman,

we sat on the cold pavement,

Shannen's hair was long,

Taylor wore her Zebra instead of Cobra,

when we had Hero day and wore HP costumes.

Today I skipped school due to an inflaming migraine.

However I looked up a lot of make up and skin care techniques.

Oh and a few hair techniques? Well only one, did you know you

can curl your hair with paper bags? Oh and an aspirin mask...

I'll be trying this stuff out soon.

Later on this week or so I'm giving myself a pedicure.

I cleared out my bookshelf so dad could re-drill them in,

but has he? No, of course not. So my room is not only a mess

of miscellaneous belongings but also a world of books spread everywhere.

Lately I've been thinking about what Hogwarts house I'm really in! I know I'm a Slytherin, but come to think of it, am I bled in with any other houses?

"You're a Slytherdor! You are a natural leader and have the personality to back it up. Often people are hesitant to approach you because they feel that you will reject them. You have a bit of a temper but most of the time you're able to keep it in check; however when you are really pissed off, people better watch out. In your life you have a lot of things you want to accomplish, whether it's for yourself or another cause. You can be determined in trying to pursue this goal but your morals are too steady to allow you to be absolutely ruthless. You don't let many people know this, but you actually like the idea of chivalry (but you try to keep this buried) and you try to live your life with honor. You don't back away from tough decisions. Your weakness is that sometimes you can be arrogant, you forget about the 'lesser people' and this leads you to underestimate your opponents. With the charisma of a Gryffindor and the ambition of a Slytherin you can be great in life!"

The Ning

In one of my good friends words: "Nerdfighters is as addicting as Myspace"

It's true, I find myself wanting to make the profile amazing.

SO, I'll add more to the blog later. Just in math, understanding logs and having free time on my hands.

2 days late

GOING TO BPA NATIONALS, BITCH!
I seriously didn't think my team was going to win FIRST PLACE, yeah you heard me. Doubt was in my stomach as we were on the award stage and then one by one (out of five teams across FL) and then BAM CROOMS AOIT! My mom said we had the most shocked faces. I was killing Caroline's hand...sorry for that but you definitely kept me calm up there. I really wish you were coming =/ Anthony, Byran and Gina are coming too! God this will be fun. Oh and can't forget Nick who got THREE trophies, yes we should all bow down. I hope the thing with Ricky's competition gets solved too, he's so nice! They only called up one winner for his thing and we were all like wtf??? (/edit) RICKY IS GOING TO DALLAS TOO! :D

Anyways, I'll be writing more about that in my actual journal. ROFL. I'm tired, and watching the Bad Girls Club (new!).


Wranglin' into Dallas,
C

i must be weak.

Revelations I've had:

1. I need to learn how to drive
2. I do better in math when I teach myself

3. I've become lazy when it comes to cleaning

4. I want to to do something!

5. I really am starting to dislike my phone

i want, i want

Perfect for sleepovers and stuff, ja?

mr. green

I'm sorry journalism class, I have given up all hope on you. I'm afraid my grade will go down. I simply love this class though...it's too enjoyable just chilling rather than writing news stories.

On the other hand, Mr. Green you should look forward to a small story about the abudance impact you have on me as well as some of you other nerd fighters.


Full up on Coke Zero,
C

new goal: take more pictures

(this is of course, after reading tons and tons)

hola hola hola

So, I want to have more eventful weekends. For instance on Friday night I was up till two working on a science fair board that was going to be presented to the county the following morning while watching Fear and Jumper, oh and I recorded Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I was in movie heaven among my procrastinating worries.

Then Saturday I basically lived at the Seminole Mall while I barely talked to the judges (half out of fear and half because my throat was killing me) but ended up getting second place in the division "Team - Physical Sciences". To add my movie heaven, I saw Shopaholic and adored it. Now I have to see He's Just Not That Into You and Coraline. If I don't, then I'll perish. Following the movie Taylor and I "invisibly" ninjaed back to the mall. Twas brilliant. I basically went home and crashed. Though two hours into my sleep my dad made me take horrid cough medicine that caused my tongue to feel as if it had fallen off. . .

Sunday, I slept on and off till two and then I decided to clean . . . only when I say that I'm going to clean it really means that I'm going to read the new books that I got (oh, yeah, I got those too on Saturday~). Later in the day I went to Taylor's where Shannen and I enjoyed attempting to tape our dear friend to the wall and watch her reach for the ice cream, in which we were happily spooning into our mouths. My tongue was in bliss. Ha ha. We made fish sticks around 12 am (?) and played UNO and I dominated all! How I forgot how much I love that game.

Then today, Shannen and I basically jumped into my community pool, shivering for twenty minutes at least before we jumped out and just lied on the lounge chairs talking about life. So of course, we got hungry walked to the Chinese place. Shannen was a mess, CRUMBS! Oh well, I still love her.

Oh I also got flowers for my mom and bought a Taylor Swift song on iTunes. Man, I applaud you if you even read this far.


Eventfully yours,
C

red ribbon

Team - Physical Sciences
2ND PLACE, whoohoo!

macbook

I want one =/
I'm typing on one.
I want one.../whine

taylorisspazztic

tay: MERRRRRRRRRRRROOOOOOAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRQ
car: AAAAAAAAAAAH
car: weird taylor noises.
car its the noise of the jungle!
car: man must survive aganist this beast!
car: runn.
tay: WHERE?!?!
tay hah
car: the trick for you is to look in a mirror!
tay: HEY
tay: DX
tay: llol ARG YOU

murf's myspace

Stole Murf's idea of a screenshot.

edit* Ew, bad quality.

Facts 1-10

1) Had a dream where my soulmate was a random guy with blonde hair...and saw him in the next couple of days. That was the longest time I've ever held eye contact with a stranger.

2) Sat in the middle of a restaurant and a car wash just to read Harry Potter 7. Cried in the middle of the car wash waiting place because Hedwig and Moony died and laughed because Fred and George are hilarious.

3) Watched a youtube video about jokes so much that I can nearly say every joke that Hank Green says as well.

4) When I was little I believed I was half witch and at that time I didn't know Harry Potter existed. It is destiny.

5) Got fish for the very first time, 2 to be exact. They kept dying so I kept getting new ones every day. Eventually I got 2 that lived for a year or so then I had to move. I'm some kind of fish killer.../cry

6) Tripped and fell onto a gravel parking lot. The ambulance people had to come and make sure no gravel was in my head or something, was terrified of all the lights and people surrounding me.

7) Typically it's hard for doctors / nurses to draw blood. I've only had one occurrence when someone took my blood in less than a minute, I believe that will be the only time that ever happens.

8) Wrote a short story that made my grandma cry when she read it.

9) Believed I could be Jeff Gorwin and travel the world. Man was that guy my role-model.

10) Also believed that I could be Mary-Kat and Ashley. Now I want to go about every place they ever made a movie in: first stop, London.

11) Sterling is amazing!!!

urban dictionary, yo

In addition to adding the description "this blog is a horcrux" I decided to urban dictionary the word.

Horcrux: 1) In Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince, by J.K. Rowling, a witch or wizard may use Dark Magic to divide their soul and hide it in other objects. The object then becomes a horcrux (plural: horcruxes). This must be done after an act of supreme evil e.g. murder. This grants them a form of immortality. 2) A hooker that is on cruches.

(So Voldie had some very perv-like things hidden for such a long time).

Then, I decided to ubran dictionay my own name:

Carly: 1) Someone or something that gives you butterflys cause of their sexy apearance in which gives you urges. 2) You are a strong person who likes to take the lead sometimes and other times would rather be part of the background. That extra attention is great most of the time, you just have those days when you like to be noticed and talked to. You're good at the things you like but not always the best and u dislike the things you're bad at. You get along with almost every one, but some people just piss you off. You have trouble letting go of things that really meant a lot to you and can be obsessive if it was REALLY important to you! You good at keeping secrets, at least the ones you think are necessary to keep. You can get you self into a lot of trouble if u did something stupid enough, but u think the stupid things are fun because every one thinks your SO perfect and would never do anything wrong! Over all you have fun with life and take the good with the bad, its all an adventure, live life wile it lasts!

Do you think this matches me?

flailing phalanges

Every time I open up my window I cannot pull it open from the bottom, my nails just end up getting torn up and what not. So I end up maneuvering my way through the blinds (cause you know, why open the blinds when you can just put your hands through them) and then my hands must look like they are flailing through the blinds stupidly. It's just something I noticed because every time this stupid act happens a car or two passes by and I always think the people are like "wtf..."

If you actually read that I applaud you + going to be blogging random things tonight. Enjoy.

list update!

1) I'm finding more and more people that I love to watch on youtube.
2) I really want a time turner and a diagon alley map (amongst loads of other things).
3) There are about seven Gilmore Girl episodes I need to watch on the DVR.
4) I haven't started an ounce of homework, and I really should get to that...
5) Movies are on my mind: Shopaholic, He's Just Not That Into You, Coraline (and more but those are the main ones).
6) My stomach is really killing me and my nose is a wreck. I hate medicine sometimes.
7) In a bigger Harry Potter mood than I have been in a while (:
8) Addiction to online pixels and my wii are not helping my current goal list atm.
9) I'm more self consious than I thought! Baharg.
10) Any hair ideas for me? Getting kind of bored of my current style.

about that cranberry juice..

Actually I have no idea if cranberry juice will prevent me from kidney stones...because I just googled it for you all in hopes of getting a direct quote so I wouldn't have to explain things (avid lazy blog poster? ja) So at this moment I'm baffled /cry

I've been doing that /cry a lot lately, for instance when I learned I didn't have the rigth funds for the Accio Con I felt very deprived from Harry Potter and Twilight it was a sad case, so sad that I was babbling on the AC boards (if you know what I'm talking about then booyah!) about getting lent a BD pet (bwahah) so I could squash all the puny challengers. I'm visious with my pixels.

Anyways, back onto the cranberry juice. So I've missed what two full days of school and it's absoulte torture knowing that I'm going to have to take my semester exams. I absolutely dread them so much that at the last minute I'm doing whatever it takes to get my fugging A. I'm going to be missing two more days...unless I'm put into the hospital to rid of this kidney stone that hasn't passed!

Srsly, google 'kidney stone' I'm never good with explaining things like this...

I really thought I would rant more about the pain inflicted on my right kidney but hey, I think I'm going to stop and rant about how The Flithy Youth myspace page just won't load! & Kat Dennings needs to post more blogs x)

drink yer cranberry juice.

more on that later.

itouch, yo

statements

Current time: 1.36 AM
Alarm clock set for: 5.00 AM

1. I CANNOT SLEEP. I AM DOOOMMMEDDDD! I watched the Duggar Wedding or something, and am now watching HGTV...I say, this is terrible. I'm usually asleep like a baby right now. I REPEAT I CANNOT SLEEP.

2. Tomorrow I'm going to break my own heart. In a weird way, don't ask. I'll probably get all girly emotional on yer ass.

3. I've decieded a list of goals, and I really should write them down before I forget them...

4. 20 days till Shopahlic! I cannot wait, at all. I'm glancing over my favorite parts in the book and just drooling over the trailers. Okay not really, but I am very excited for one of my favorite series to be made into a movie. Just hopefully it won't fail as much as a certain vampire love story did.

5. This list is pointless and not even full of humor. Ho hum.

6. JON AND KATE PLUS 8 TOMORROWWW!

7. Why on earth do I not have my Perks of Being a Wallflower book back? I lent it to Lily a while ago, I'm dying to read it again...and if you have not read it I demand you (with all my wizardly force) to go and read it NAO.

Sadly this list of random ass statements was short lived. Maybe my brain is telling me to sleep.

President Obama

It's a beautiful day in America.

oh mia, oh my-iah.

I had a mini-marathon of girly movies. I had already seen them all several times.

1. Because I Said So
2. The Princess Diaries
3. What a Girl Wants
4. A Cinderella Story

I must say, my heart is full of happy girly bubbles. I love these movies so much.

things change.

There's a time where I stop and think. I tend to think about everything, I overanalyze to a point where I feel as if my head could perhaps explode. This past week has been a continous migraine that just causes me to want sleep more and more. I belive the reason I am so obsessed with the TWLOHA concert was because it was a five hour escape from all surrounding me and still reminds one that we're all alive.

I hate going through break-ups. Then on top of that I'm in the constant tug of war wondering if I'm still dating him. After a year of being in my first real relationship and in the midst of that I fall in love. Why? That I cannot explain and this is so stupid that it's such a confusing thing. I hate this tornado, or whatever. And yet I still love him so much that it hurts. Baaharg.

TAYLOR SAYS HELLO!

murf is a hoe.

[19:21] Me: THE ACADEMY IS SIGNGING AUTOGRAPHS OR SOMETHING AT THE VOLUSIA MALL sometimes...
[19:21] Murf: aHJGFIDLHGAIOUPSDHFGIOADSHJFKL;DSJFKL;ADJKFKL;ADSD
[19:21] Murf: YOU'RE JOKING!
[19:21] Murf: THEY'E
[19:21] Murf: IN
[19:21] Murf: VOLUSIA?
[19:21] Murf: !?!?!?!?!!
[19:21] Murf: JFKDLS;JFKL;ADSJFKL;ADSJFL;KADSJF;LADSJFL;ADSJFKL;DSA
[19:21] Murf: I MUST MEET BILL BECKETT
[19:21] Murf: *orgasm* ...slightly
[19:21] Me: YESSS. AND MY AUNT LIVES OVER THERE.
[19:21] Me: SO LIKE. WE CAN GO.
[19:21] Me: AND LIKE...SAY HEY.
[19:22] Me: Lemme get the little flyer out of my purse.
[19:22] Murf: lol
[19:22] Me: This is goign to be in all caps.
[19:22] Me: because it makes more of an IMPACT.
[19:22] Me: HOT TOPIC PRESENTS 'HELLO, MY NAME IS...' FEATURING THE ACADEMY IS..., THE CAB.
[19:23] Me: MEMBERS OF EACH BAND WILL BE SIGNING AUTOGRAPHS AT HOT TOPIC.
[19:23] Me: VOLUSIA MALL.
[19:23] Me: MONDAY JANUARY 26 @ 5:30PM.
[19:23] Murf: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
[19:24] Me: Yo, I'm blogging part of this convo.
[19:24] Me: Wanna know whyy? Caus emy blog is open atm.
[19:24] Me: And im in a posting mood yo.
[19:25] Murf: HI CARLY'S BLOG READERS
[19:25] Murf: I'M MURF
[19:25] Murf: AND I WANT TO HAVE YOUR BABIES.
[19:25] Murf: LETS FACE IT.
[19:25] Murf: I'M A HOE.
[19:25] Me: ROFL!

alice.

oh my god. i spend too much time on youtube.

holy cow. my god.

twloha: heavy and light

An amazing concert, acoustic, nearly made me cry, and just plain a different experience than the typical concert. For example I was in the pit the entire time and was not pushed nor did I have trouble making it to at lest the third row. The pictures are from Tyler's iPhone during their final song. The talented artists are: Jon Foreman (Switchfoot), Aaron Gillespie (Underoath/The Almost), Dustin Kensrue (Thrice), Anthony Raneri (Bayside), Josh Moore, and the amazing Zach Williams. They sang "With a Little Help From My Friends"

You can watch the entire concert here: http://www.twloha.com/blog/night-heavy-light-watch-entire GO! I say go and fill your ears with wicked music and your heart with love.