Random thoughts...

I haven't really blogged in a long time. The need to write [pound on the keyboard] my feelings has been irrelevant in my mind for the past two months. It's actually quite sad.

A few notes on summer:

--The very first day of summer I started dating Sterling, and he's this humorous, genuine, caring guy. I wonder if he'd hate me saying this online...but I really feel like I bring out a different side of him. A side that isn't a jerk, and actually reminds me that he's there for me and that has a tendency to do the sweetest things. He was the first person (besides my mother) to give me flowers, the one who sneaked a note into my suitcase when I left for Dallas, and remembered how spirited I am about night beach life. Sterling is also the first guy I have complete nerves around, nerves that I can't place that cause me to shy in person sometimes.

--I've had the time to sit in front of my bookshelf, organize it, and go through all of my favorite parts in each book. Today, I actually read my favorite parts in Twilight and Breaking Dawn (Book 1). I had forgotten how much passion I put into each novel. Each page was something I took in so deeply, memorizing myself in the text, and pulling quotes and ideas from each passage. I fell in love with the character Stacey Brown (Blue is for Nightmares), the character Byrony (Atonement), Ellen Hopkin's stanza writing, John Green's way of portraying strong characters and stories, and the way the book Sweethearts makes me cry every time I discover that there are some people you will indefinitely love but they won't always be there. With realization, I knew that Literature was a part of me, and that I would never lose it no matter how twisted I feel.

--Music. I couldn't help diving into Demi Lovato's music, listening to "I've Gotta Feeling" on repeat, or even loving "Party in the USA" by Miley Cyrus. There is so many more songs and artists that I have savored in lately. Even if it's not everyone's favorite, or "acceptable", it's your own taste. Thrive in it, love it, and embrace everything you enjoy.

--Sounds in general amuse me also. My cousin has been staying here for a week and he is the type to entertain himself; he will make the oddest sounds that just work. When you plug in speakers to a computer, a static sound that almost pops. The car keys making a cling sound that shuffles when you are driving. Sounds are just everywhere--if you don't notice them then you're missing out. All these sounds become so common and nonexistent from years of hearing them.

--School work is the last thing I want to think about but it's there humming beside me. Almost beckoning me, but also saying "You can get it done tomorrow..." when I end up swimming, lounging, or playing Animal Crossing: City Folk. There's a crap load of stuff to be done by August 24th and I'm determined to get it done. (However the natural procrastinator in me says otherwise).

--Sadly, I've just started getting out into the sun on a daily basis and I realized how much I miss swimming. The way the water engrosses you and the ripples splash against your shoulders. Even though they make me look dorky, I love the feeling of wearing goggles and looking up to the quivering water.