Evidetly, these past two days I've been one of those emotional wrecked angsty teenagers who can be giggly one moment and think of something "terrible" and begin crying. So after I got out a bubble bath, I decided to put my ipod on shuffle and this is what I learned absolutely cheers me up:
--Make your hair extra large because you've been infatuated with Hermione Granger lately
--Wear the darkest lipstick you have, wear it proudly and kiss your mirror
--Sing very loudly to every embarrassing song that comes up such as ones from Lindsay Lohan
--And, when love/relationship songs come on think about where everything could go
--When Gives You Hell comes on think about all the people who fucked you over and be proud to sing this with them in mind
--Be tempted to wear outrageous eyeshadow colors but figure out that if you do to see Up! later, you would definitely regret it
--Laugh at yourself when you're spinning in circles, dancing, putting on more lipstick, and adding more moose to your already fluffy hair
Anyways, here's a little quiz / fill in type of thing for all of you who read.
10 things you wish you could say to ten different people right now:
1. I'm sorry for never giving you enough time, but the talks we have out in the garage mean so much to me.
2. Sometimes you're such an ass and I want to stop talking to you, but I just can't.
3. I wish that you would take a breather and realize some of the things you say.
4. I'm really glad we fixed some things up. But are you ever going to stay permanently?
5. Please, go look at yourself in the mirror--really look at yourself and tell me that you don't see who you are.
6. I always hoped that friendship would prevail all.
7. I'm so sorry that it seems like I don't give you enough time.
8. You'll never know how much of a brother you really seem to me.
9. Thanks for just being you, at all times.
10. I'll always have this thing for you, but I'll never let it ruin the friendship we have.
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9 Things people probably don't know:
1. No one really knows me unless they're a close friend. I'm not that shy.
2. I grind my teeth when I'm sleeping. It's due to TMJ, and my jaw hurts more than half the time.
3. I hate how people stress about their body, money, sexuality, status, life in general. Just love.
4. I didn't become passionate about Harry Potter till after the third movie.
5. I'm scatterbrained when I get excited about something I'm talking about.
6. I don't trust many people, maybe 8-10 outside of my family.
7. I miss how strong I used to be.
8. The only meat I eat is chicken.
9. I love the simplistic things in life.
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8 ways to win your heart:
1. Give hugs just because.
2. Make me laugh even when I'm crying.
3. Treat me well.
4. Let me be myself.
5. Be good to my friends and family.
6. Let me trust you, the real you.
7. Tell me a song or two that remind you of me.
8. Don't judge.
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7 awesome movies:
1. Billy Elliot
2. Rent
3. Thirteen
4. Charlie Bartlett
5. 10 Things I Hate About You
6. How To Deal
7. Running with Scissors
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6 things you do before you fall asleep:
1. Wash my face.
2. Put my iPod on shuffle.
3. Pick up my current book and read.
4. Turn over to face the window.
5. Think.
6. Hope.
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5 people who mean a lot:
1. My mom.
2. My dad.
3. My brother Maxwell.
4. My grandma Judy.
5. My aunt Heather.
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4 things you don't like:
1. Frogs.
2. Anxiety.
3. Broccoli.
4. Nightmares.
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3 things you like:
1. My close friends.
2. Hand surfing outside car windows.
3. Flickering lights.
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2 things you want to do before you die:
1. Change someone's life.
2. Write a novel that will inspire.
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1 confession:
I say I don't regret things, but honestly I do.
5.26.2009
tell me why
And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around
And here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why?
You could write a book on how
To ruin someone's perfect day
Well, I get so confused and frustrated
Forget what I'm trying to say, oh
I'm sick and tired of your reasonsI got no one to believe in
You tell me that you want me, then push me around
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around
And here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why?
You could write a book on how
To ruin someone's perfect day
Well, I get so confused and frustrated
Forget what I'm trying to say, oh
I'm sick and tired of your reasonsI got no one to believe in
You tell me that you want me, then push me around
5.25.2009
13 Reasons Why
I have an uncanny ability to discard things I should do, and just lie on my bed not caring until 8pm. What happens when you just lounge all day? You're brain begins to process things you've shoved to the deepest, darkest, part that was never meant to be brought out again. However shit that you shoved away will always crawl back.
Why did I let myself do this, again?
1. All school related things seem revolting when the end is near + a three day weekend just passed.
2. You're tired for no reason, you just are. Tired from lying around and drinking siera mist while watching JK8 all day long.
3. Laptops are too handy for those who procrastinate and the internet is too fast.
4. You're mom just went grocery shopping and got all of you favorite snack foods like goldfish and she even got you brownie mix to help you feel better.
5. All of your favorite novels are sprawled out in front of your bookshelf because you feel like there's no way that they can just /sit/ on the shelves for their lifespan.
6. You're lazy, admit it.
7. You realize that you're family is annoying today, and your room is the safe heaven you have--even if the door lock is broken.
8. Harry Potter is your source of happiness, so while rereading GoF, you soon realize little details you'd temporarily forgotten.
9. You go through each Harry Potter book remembering all of your favorite things. Hence part of the book pile.
10. You're writing all day long via text with one of your best friends.
11. You dwell on AP classes, wondering if three is too much or too little for scholarships and you also dwell on how you got wrapped into running for president of BPA.
12. Your best friend turned boyfriend turned exboyfriend is completely silent towards you most of the time.
13. Your exboyfriend (not the best friend) completely ruined you, making you wish that all you could do is stay in bed and wish you'd never made one of the biggest regrets of your life.
Why did I let myself do this, again?
1. All school related things seem revolting when the end is near + a three day weekend just passed.
2. You're tired for no reason, you just are. Tired from lying around and drinking siera mist while watching JK8 all day long.
3. Laptops are too handy for those who procrastinate and the internet is too fast.
4. You're mom just went grocery shopping and got all of you favorite snack foods like goldfish and she even got you brownie mix to help you feel better.
5. All of your favorite novels are sprawled out in front of your bookshelf because you feel like there's no way that they can just /sit/ on the shelves for their lifespan.
6. You're lazy, admit it.
7. You realize that you're family is annoying today, and your room is the safe heaven you have--even if the door lock is broken.
8. Harry Potter is your source of happiness, so while rereading GoF, you soon realize little details you'd temporarily forgotten.
9. You go through each Harry Potter book remembering all of your favorite things. Hence part of the book pile.
10. You're writing all day long via text with one of your best friends.
11. You dwell on AP classes, wondering if three is too much or too little for scholarships and you also dwell on how you got wrapped into running for president of BPA.
12. Your best friend turned boyfriend turned exboyfriend is completely silent towards you most of the time.
13. Your exboyfriend (not the best friend) completely ruined you, making you wish that all you could do is stay in bed and wish you'd never made one of the biggest regrets of your life.
5.22.2009
Adriana / Luna / Plato / Tana
Luna, I'm having a hard time thinking about things to say about you.
You're too amazing in my life for me to describe <3
You're too amazing in my life for me to describe <3
fox hug
Another piece of art by Wirrow. I really like the intimacy of the hug, and how it can display multiple things.
jus sayin'
*I will probably go back to each of my "meet & write" posts and make them longer. I write quickly, and often go back and rewrite each of them.
Tyler / Murf
Though you, Tyler, almost made us hit the back bumper of a car that you earlier honked at, and sometimes make me laugh till I turn the color of a cheery slurpee (very embarrassing shade of red)--I still love you. You're one of my best friends in this short life that I've yet to live.
You're there to make me laugh, asks me what's wrong, to oogle over Youtube channels, to bring up random John Green associated things, to enlighten me in some music, and everything else that I can't even describe with the use of a keyboard.
You were the one who took me to an amazing concert, TWLOHA: Heavy and Light, and you were there for the aftermath when my ex-boyfriend was being crazy (nice word for it), and when I explained what I was going to walk into (a massive angry attack from my parents due to my ex). Next, I'll take you to a concert you can't forget.
I will confide in you with just about anything, and I would hope you'd do the same with me. You're one of the people I completely trust, which means a lot. I can't trust many people with all of me.
Let's make FML shirts one day, and run around with glitter on ourselves and hell let's dance in your culdasack while singing along to Alicia Keys.
House: Gryffindor
Song: With A Little Help From My Friends by The Beatles
You're there to make me laugh, asks me what's wrong, to oogle over Youtube channels, to bring up random John Green associated things, to enlighten me in some music, and everything else that I can't even describe with the use of a keyboard.
You were the one who took me to an amazing concert, TWLOHA: Heavy and Light, and you were there for the aftermath when my ex-boyfriend was being crazy (nice word for it), and when I explained what I was going to walk into (a massive angry attack from my parents due to my ex). Next, I'll take you to a concert you can't forget.
I will confide in you with just about anything, and I would hope you'd do the same with me. You're one of the people I completely trust, which means a lot. I can't trust many people with all of me.
Let's make FML shirts one day, and run around with glitter on ourselves and hell let's dance in your culdasack while singing along to Alicia Keys.
House: Gryffindor
Song: With A Little Help From My Friends by The Beatles
5.21.2009
Ishan
Ishan, we've only become close this past year, and I wish there was more time in school, and I hope there is more time outside of school. In all the years to come, I know everything will go your way.
We, just recently, deemed the word UGLY a curse word. It's not a pretty word, it makes us wince whenver we do say it. We can't even call the weather ****. We may be silly, but trust me, we only see the beauty. (Yes to all: the word ugly is worse than the word fucker).
I don't have too much to say, because I'd rather hug you and tell you that I wish there was another time where I could steal your jacket and snuggle with it. Or even more so, another time were we could roam around the hotel during BPA and just talk about nonsense or walk silent as we point out things (or cute guys).
House: Hufflepuff
Song: Forever Young by Youth Group
We, just recently, deemed the word UGLY a curse word. It's not a pretty word, it makes us wince whenver we do say it. We can't even call the weather ****. We may be silly, but trust me, we only see the beauty. (Yes to all: the word ugly is worse than the word fucker).
I don't have too much to say, because I'd rather hug you and tell you that I wish there was another time where I could steal your jacket and snuggle with it. Or even more so, another time were we could roam around the hotel during BPA and just talk about nonsense or walk silent as we point out things (or cute guys).
House: Hufflepuff
Song: Forever Young by Youth Group
meet & write
I'm currently in Web Design, wanting to bang my head aganist the table because Scott, Cecil, and I are trying to come up with a design for SASA's website. Nothing works, we're all lazy. Although, we get out of half of the semester exam so that always cheers us up. At any moment, Cecil may turn my screen and read what I'm writing or Scott will look over and wondering if I'm fretting about emails again.
That was saved as a draft, and now I'm in A+ completely bored and annoyed that a PowerPoint presentation is due to day. I really do hate this class, it's so bogus that we get tests without knowing about them and end up having assignments we didn't even know were due. He's not the best teacher in the world, and I dislike having to teach myself things about computer parts.
This morning, I came up with a grand plan that consists of about 11-15 blog posts. I love all of my friends, and I've decided to dedicate a blog post to all of my close ones. I already have a list that I tore out of my notebook and wrote with my glittery orange gel pen. I know what to write about some (Tyler, I thought about yours the most today) and others I'm unsure about what to say (Ozzie, I can't get you off of my mind, and it's horrid trying to explain it all) and others who I know bits and pieces of what to say (Taylor & Adriana). I know that I'm going to do something really dorky at the end of each post: list what Hogwarts house they'd be in, songs that remind me of them, and maybe a book that they should read. It seems suiting, for me to expalin those little lists to my friends.
I appreciate everyone I've met in my life; even if you butchered me through and through. I don't want to ever exclude anyone in my posts, I apologize if I do. And don't fret, this may take me a while if I am as braindead later as I am now.
Ugh, my teacher is bitching about how there aren't pictures on someone's slides. He's so stupid about these things. He doesn't teach but bitches because they aren't what he said they should be.
/crawling into a hole and listening to the rain
late night writing
I've always loved the group Late Night Alumni, ever since they came out I knew of them but once I started watching Michelle Phan, I knew that they were one of my favorite music artists out there.
I know it came as no surprise
I'm affected more than I had guessed on what was said
It's 12am, and I'm still awake. I'm considering staying up till tomorrow morning (though I know this wouldn't end too well). It just feels good to be at happy moments, where exhilarating creativity flows through your vienes, you can sing along with your mom during the American Idol finale, and go on Myspace and edit the profile you've left abandoned for so long.
If the smile's not meant to be
If the heart's not ready to open
If we make it I won't see how it's broken
There's so much more that made my day today:
--I learned a new pattern for friendship bracelets (trust me, it's keeping my mind busy when I'm upset)
--During lunch there were semi-wars that consisted of tickling, and lots of laughing
--We got our yearbooks, I love looking back at my old yearbooks...it's my history
--I missed a reading check in English due to a yearbook signing party
--My complicated relationship is getting less painful to listen to the silence
--Rereading HP4, truly a mood lifter (I didn't start from 1 because I have the first three memorized)
--Looking at Wirrow's art is so much more fun than it may seem, he also writes beautiful things
I hope everyone is doing mighty fine <3
I know it came as no surprise
I'm affected more than I had guessed on what was said
It's 12am, and I'm still awake. I'm considering staying up till tomorrow morning (though I know this wouldn't end too well). It just feels good to be at happy moments, where exhilarating creativity flows through your vienes, you can sing along with your mom during the American Idol finale, and go on Myspace and edit the profile you've left abandoned for so long.
If the smile's not meant to be
If the heart's not ready to open
If we make it I won't see how it's broken
There's so much more that made my day today:
--I learned a new pattern for friendship bracelets (trust me, it's keeping my mind busy when I'm upset)
--During lunch there were semi-wars that consisted of tickling, and lots of laughing
--We got our yearbooks, I love looking back at my old yearbooks...it's my history
--I missed a reading check in English due to a yearbook signing party
--My complicated relationship is getting less painful to listen to the silence
--Rereading HP4, truly a mood lifter (I didn't start from 1 because I have the first three memorized)
--Looking at Wirrow's art is so much more fun than it may seem, he also writes beautiful things
I hope everyone is doing mighty fine <3
5.18.2009
and she's back again!
Do you know how it feels to be cheated on?
Like, by a significant other? No. But in life? Kind of.
Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
Ummm. Whatever company sells the Crooms uniform shirts.
Do you have a good relationship with your mother?
Yep.
Are there any posters on your wall?
Yes! I have a few Harry Potter ones and several other ones. I need to hang some more up though.
Do you have a best friend?
Yes! Or rather a few, I’m not too sure. I know I definitely have four very good best friends.
Are you a mean person?
Sometimes, yes.
Does anyone hate you?
I don’t think so…
Do you think relationships are even worth it?
Yeah, I do.
What are you going to do this weekend?
Well, I’m hoping I can hang out with close friends! I want out of the house though, or be able to lock my bedroom door.
How many people of the opposite sex do you basically fully trust?
Fully trust? One.
Do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
Yeah, been there and can do it again once I sort everything out.
Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
Obviously, I’m at school now.
Do you usually tell people when your mad at them?
Hmmm. I don’t get MAD that often. Annoyed, yes, I usually do tell them or they get the jist of it.
Are you ticklish?
MWAHAHA, NO.
Are you gonna be home alone tonight?
No…I live with my parents and my younger brother.
Ever really cried your heart out?
Metaphorically, yes.
Who was the last female you hugged?
My mom? Haven’t been in hugging mood lately. FIX IT! :D
Is there one person or more in your life that can always make you smile?
YEAH!
What does your 5th text in your inbox say and who’s it from?
From Shannen: Haha. You going to ignore her rest of day?
If you were kicked out of your house, where would you go first?
To one of my friend’s homes; I have two of my best friends who live a bike ride away.
Have you ever kissed the last person you texted?
LOL, I have never kissed Shannen.
Someone leaves a note and flowers on your car, cute or tacky?
CUTE!
When you say you don’t care, do you mean it?
Ummm. Probably.
When was the last time you laughed really really hard?
Good question, Quiz. Thanks for making me realize my sadness even more so.
Like, by a significant other? No. But in life? Kind of.
Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
Ummm. Whatever company sells the Crooms uniform shirts.
Do you have a good relationship with your mother?
Yep.
Are there any posters on your wall?
Yes! I have a few Harry Potter ones and several other ones. I need to hang some more up though.
Do you have a best friend?
Yes! Or rather a few, I’m not too sure. I know I definitely have four very good best friends.
Are you a mean person?
Sometimes, yes.
Does anyone hate you?
I don’t think so…
Do you think relationships are even worth it?
Yeah, I do.
What are you going to do this weekend?
Well, I’m hoping I can hang out with close friends! I want out of the house though, or be able to lock my bedroom door.
How many people of the opposite sex do you basically fully trust?
Fully trust? One.
Do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
Yeah, been there and can do it again once I sort everything out.
Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
Obviously, I’m at school now.
Do you usually tell people when your mad at them?
Hmmm. I don’t get MAD that often. Annoyed, yes, I usually do tell them or they get the jist of it.
Are you ticklish?
MWAHAHA, NO.
Are you gonna be home alone tonight?
No…I live with my parents and my younger brother.
Ever really cried your heart out?
Metaphorically, yes.
Who was the last female you hugged?
My mom? Haven’t been in hugging mood lately. FIX IT! :D
Is there one person or more in your life that can always make you smile?
YEAH!
What does your 5th text in your inbox say and who’s it from?
From Shannen: Haha. You going to ignore her rest of day?
If you were kicked out of your house, where would you go first?
To one of my friend’s homes; I have two of my best friends who live a bike ride away.
Have you ever kissed the last person you texted?
LOL, I have never kissed Shannen.
Someone leaves a note and flowers on your car, cute or tacky?
CUTE!
When you say you don’t care, do you mean it?
Ummm. Probably.
When was the last time you laughed really really hard?
Good question, Quiz. Thanks for making me realize my sadness even more so.
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